22/12/2012

So,its the day after the most annoying day on social media. yeah yeah,world has ended and im the only one who survived.blah blah. anyhow,i spent the day usual and i read the fanfic of Axel & Roxas:) if you're wondering what fanfic was that,i'll let ur imagination run wild;) im not going to tell ya:) Anyway,been 3 days since i met DR JAMES regarding the stupid relapse of my itch,feel way better now,skin back to 'normal' haha:) been sleeping pretty good these days too:) i hoping to remember some dreams i had but i think that's not going to work until i learned how to do lucid dreaming? was alone in my room and i read the fanfic by my bed,mum thought i was sleeping,oh well")i had fun reading the fanfic:) went to bathe like 8pm plus:) while i was bathing,i thought of quite a few things and why do i find myself missing the memories?xD IM VERY WEIRD:)SO,when i came out of bath,i feel slightly different..well,my eyes were darker and umm.. it looked bigger and rounder:0 N IT LOOK A LITTLE SURREAL WOR! when i looked at myself in the mirror while blowing my hair, i thought i looked different. i can see whats inside like as though im looking through the mirror,my face was pretty stiff though.. i wasnt afraid of anything for that moment:) offended my uncle during dinner hahaah,over a spoon. sounds ridiculous but yesh._. apparently i refuse to go to he kitchen and take a spoon. like seriously, why should i do that? he has his own legs. doesnt mean im the maknae , im gonna be doing everything u want me to do. this aint korea. THIS IS FREAKIN SINGAPORE. so i refuse to obliged. mum was nudging me by the elbow telling me to go and take the spoon, i was like 'why should i' lol.. in the end sis,went to the kitchen.lol.. apparently mum made black chicken soup (that's comforting me i guessxD)

GUARDIANS0:)

The rise of guardians is such a Good movie<3 it may be for kids but it is also for the adults. Funny yet entertaining;) definitely gonna recommend this movie;) if we talk about guardians, i like jack frost but he isnt my guardian cus there isnt any snow in my room:/ but i probably doesnt have a guardian whom i adknowledge. Cuz my sis aint that caring to be my guardian. I always wanted a big brother whom i adores.he would protect me,be my listening ear,fight for me. I've long for such a brother. I didnt really manage to find one. But AA is probably the closest<3 all this while,instead of having a guardian, i was the guardian. For my friends..i dont know if they feel it. But i dare say im always looking out for them whenever im with them. I fight for them, i was their listening ear. Though on the surface,i may look like a total playful kid, im arent really what i look. I develop this sense of responsibility of taking care of others ever since entering csh. These people have been hurt so badly by the outside world that i didnt have the heart to see them getting hurt again.so i try to protect them by small means. Im aint a super hero.im just a kid.with the same disability as them. I can say im a leader but i prefer to be a freelancer leader.. I dont like the heavy responsibility of a leader.if i need to be one,i'll just be an adviser. IM A SISTER OF JACK FROST! Call me Crost? LololxD im sleepy but awake.how ironic.if u send me to the USA, im confident im gonna survive cus my body is just suit to the timing;) SEND ME THERE PEOPLE! i like cold<3 and this kid guardian is just on earth for 14 years.barely just passing the 10 year mark. I STill got a loong loong way.. Its 300 years mind u. Bonjour!

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Class of 2013..

Been quite a while since i last posted>< if i count it been exactly a month from the last postXD. So yeah, the streaming results are out and the good thing is i've gotten my first choice:D i find myself very lucky to get my combination cus im always arent doing well throughout..as long as im able to study biology,nothing seems to be holding me back. I've got a choice though;to take up POA. Im never interested in poa i must say. But having 7 subjects did seems to be safer,so im gonna take it. Mum says its pretty good as i get to learn more things and probably poa might help in my daily life in near future. One thing for sure,Mum was confident cus i'll score better than historyxD( i dont denyxD ) . Still find it a shame that i couldnt take amath:/ im sorta disappointed wth my math results.i was so near to the cut off marks to qualify amath:/ but that's life isnt it:) gonna learn amath anywayxD probably gonna get Bambi to teach me or i gonna learn myself:D im not very confident in poa though ... Well, i got a little scare from the gals at midnightxD to think i cant log in to SDM cus i didnt hv my caplocks onxD im thankful for what i have though:)) so erm..i saw the class list.its 90% confirmed.saw that vicky is in the same class as me:) there is plenty of 2/7 people in our class.there is a few 'well-known' people in our class.. Which i didnt expect them to be in the same class as me.Not feeling very Good towards next year though..im no fortune teller but i can tell the path for 2013 is gonna be very bumpy.i feel very unease about 3/6 ...well,i just gonna keep a low profile and do well academically,i'll better stay out of trouble,dont wanna get my life mess up;) (that doesnt apply if you mess with me though) im just happy im arent in the same class as shanice. I wont just have a poker face the next time someone like her piss me off. I probably just gonna explode n end up in the hospital agitatedxD Looking at the bright side, i do look forward towards Camp Corri. Even just a bit. Like VICky hAd mention, i think Camp Corri is going be interesting:) but on the other hand,im pretty worried for bambi. How in earth is she gonna survive in the class alone:/ same goes to wenlin. These two isnt the really social type of person. At least there's gonna be sabina,sheyenne and kaiting to look after bambi so im quite alright but in wenlin's case, there isnt anyone she is comfortable with.Probably evaline:) hopefully:) for 2013,i'll just hope for things to go smoothly and hope Poa likes me.. And get good teachers whom are understanding..yep..im gonna work towards BEING A DOCTOR! Goodluck to myself!
Btw, Guten Morgan:) its 1.15am currently in the city of temasek! SAYONARA<3

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22/10

This is suppose to be a happy day which didnt really turn out to be what i wAnted. The bbq being a failed task is pretty enjoyable which seeing mny makes it more fun because his shocked reaction was funny. Almost having an attack was one.good thing i had my puff in my bag.which i planned to play basketball when school ends but i found out a news. Which just extinguishes the happiness i had. I just find it really absurd. Having to find out something just sucks.i's rather be told personally the news.i played very badly during the game.missed the goal every single time.its the worst i've ever played.i just felt so angry,disappointed. Seriously,why must u leave when i'm just getting comfortable with u? Its so damn annoying sia.having to spend time together to find out you're leaving. I dont see any reasons why u must leave.to me,its just so ridiculous.that's why i hate saying goodbye cus its so ridiculous how people come into ur live suddenly and just says they are leaving just like that. I cant cry in front of people which the only way is to cry in one corner.im not the saddest. But probably me and sheyenne will be the saddest among them. For now,i just hope to find a way to contact with one another. I give up of saying goodbye.hai..what a bad day.

BUTTERFLY.

Today elizabeth found a injured butterfly and brought it to our clique (grace,ashley,cheyenne,afiqah,evaline,sabina) during recess.apparently the first thing i did was to observe.its wings are torn or destroyed? Ya.. Found a container n i told them to get leaves yea.. And then recess ended and back in class,joey poke holes on the container to allow it to breathe..yep,joey said she will bring it home and i was fine... Then after school,the container somehow ended up with amanda n they were 'playing' with it.which i told them to put it back.it fell off the third floor and like a helpless creature,it dropped so helplessly.i ran down,picked it up n put it back into the container.genevieve said she will bring it home.i said okay and told her specfically to be careful.i went to return my devices,otw out of the school when vicky shouted(she's part of the clique too) and told me genevieve tried to abandon the butterfly.i went over to the swing,saw the the container being passed around like curious lookers.i told them.if they want to dump it,i rather they give it to me.genevieve said it was hers n she is gonna bring it home.i insisted n she relented.so i brought home the butterfly.in the bus i tried to save it by giving it water. It really help:D now as i type,im in 265 meaning,im able to reach home in around 5 mins my dearest butterfly has been very patient while im.rushing home^^ Kudos! I seriously believe every creature on earth have feelings:) ( ezcluding antsm; they are so annoying!) n i seriously detest that attitude when you say something n do another thing. In this case,i dont trust genevieve due to her characteristics.n im seriously disappointed in joey. Seriously,what do you take animals as?! If you are the butterfly,i gurantee you are not going to like the feelings of being ill-treated like that.so here's the picture of the butterfly whom been very tolerant it has good CORRI values.lolol;) im gonna do my best to save it as this is my integrity:)

Pissed 27/9

Im pissed.very pissed. And in fact offended.i seriously thinks you have a screw or two loose. Must you shout at me when i simply raise my voice telling you guys to lower down your volume? You think i dunno that school was over.i knew that.n im been tolerating you for so long.you been so biased towards people.treating people so good when you like them, and kicked people like me who you detest aside. I dont mind seriously.cuz i've never want to be your friend.and neither do i bother to be your friend. Cus you simply dont deserve my care and concern given your bloody attitude.im already being very nice to you by not even exploding.im practically controlling my temper k.so u better not piss me off.if not u gonna end up crying with nightmares.

Not good:(

Friends means an important part of my life.now that i encountered a crisis, i dont feel good. The strong image i've been trying to built up is practically tumbling down. I dunno how much i can hold on longer. I just gonna snap very soon whoever irritates me. Probably the person who can cheer me up is probably potato. Hope he can just use some lame jokes of his to put a smile on my face. Im having consultation with him tomorrow for science. Im probably gonna break down sooner or later . So im gonna try to avoid people. I just wanna to be left alone. Probably a breaking down session with sheyenne after consultation at the basketball court.im gonna buy a basketball as my own.i dont like running so im gonna play basketball.kenneth posted on fb saying girls who plays basketball are sexy.he's one weird guy.hahah.. So if you see me, dont ask me if im okay cus im definitely not..

So im a person who uses other people's money instead of mine.

I dont blame you for taking me as a bloodsucker? Sucking people's money. I dont deny the fact i uses people's money.now i spend my own money okay.i treat people things and when i did,you arent around.so wat can i say if u take me as a crap? But seriously your attitude just sucks. It really irks me.i know exams coming and all,you're tired.but this is arent the way u should treat me.im not ur slave.im not born to satisfy your requirements.im not like you whom can be so organised in your life.i dont manage my money that well.its all my fault ok. And though i forgive her for her lies and all doesnt mean i still trust her completely.and i dont really like the idea of you becoming good friends with her. But what can i say? Its your damn life.i have absolutely no right to tell you what to do. Im a dumb person but i still care for goodness sake. By now you should have known my character. But your attitude just tell me after j these years,u still dont know me enough. NOt enough. I dont mind people gossiping behind my back. But i do mind if you gossip behind my back. You're my friend. And although im dumb,im not that dumb to not know you are gossiping behind my back.im sensitive enough to know who makes the effort to know me. And i dont think you made it in my list of people.i dont feel so close to you anymore... And i do reflect on myself everyday both good and bad.i dont think you know this,do you? Im a little pissed n disappointed.

My IDEAL guy;)

So im bored at 12.25am and to add on, i cant sleep:/ so im doing this:)so..my ideal guy has to be of course,taller than me,handsome/cute but what matters to me most is his personality and he must be funny;) i like funny guys cus you fall in love in them unknowingly as research shown<3he must also be really sweet,i like guys who treat you comfortably<3but i get a little shy around guys and its a little awkward so a funny joke will do the trick;) i tell the rest about my ideal guy but my ideal guy has change a little.im more into being funny:) i would like my guy to be mature but has this 'child' side to him sometimes.i will definitely love that<3 he must really be sincere and caring +romantic And he must be strong cuz i like to cuddle:) this are the basic things i look out in guys:D i like cuddling into someone's arm and love backhugs<3 AND HE MUST LOVE ANIMALS<3
And he MUST NOT mind my problems( the fact that i have asthma,ezcema and hearing loss) and my HI FRIENDS( must not look down on HI) AND HE MUST HAVE THIS PROTECTIVE SIDE<3 ( not to the extend of being annoying><) AND LOVES MUSIC<3

Bonus: if he have a good voice<3 , has abs; muscular<3 he is into science<3 ,good-looking<3( im not really into looks nowadays but if he is handsome,ITS A BONUS!:D )

I have lots requirements of my guy prehaps im sensitive unlike the smokescreen i used everyday.im not perfect,no one is so dont look down. I hate people who is so proud and look down upon the HI:/ we arent deaf,we can hear,we can speak,we can do things you hearing people can do. If you cant get along with my HI buddies,forget about being my guy cuz i will not,absolutely wont be with any guy if he cant accept my buddies.( even though,i like him very much ) im capable of that.im strong. So yeah that's it for my ideal guy<3 its going to be 1am in 8 mins,so im going to sleep<3

And i love guys who explore deep

and reach out to the needys<3

P.s song for the wee hours<3

REACH OUT BY WESTLIFE

&

DEFYING GRAVITY version by Glee

(must know my favorite songs too<3)

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

310812:)))

Im a happy girl today<3 achieve my goal in bringing the friendship a step ahead ^{shhh... Only sheyenne knows about today cus we were together right after celebrations end<3my ultimate goal which i share with sheyenne has still a long way to go. I wont say who made me happy but i will name them names:) okay.Dinosaur is cute today he smiled alot which was very nice:D played a little with him after celebration,trying to snatch the toy he recieved.aha.i told him i wanted one.he said wait till 10 years later...lol which he will obviously be quite old;) so he said in 6 years time.lol,shall.remember it and claim my price when i turn 20<3 he got a monkey.i was like lol,he admitted he look like monkey,i didnt say it;) haha.potato salad was absolutely cute todayxD his baby picture got released today in the quiz:) his eyes look the same0.0 hahah,that's how i recognises him:) was a little pissed off when the sec 2 were made to sit all the way back but i smiled again cus potato was doing gangnam style!LOL,that's cute and then the dance whereby MnY danced on the stage like a madman:) he's cute too.hhah,mny's stamina is really ....em...not goodxD hahaha an this potato have no idea on what to do and just did the hand movements which obviously i laughed cus his facial expression was --- liddat.hahah:) potato is a really funny guy:))) talk alot to him today}mixture of chinese n english.haha:/ i kept saying tortoise in chinese when its a frogxD TORTOISE! Hehe:)) dog-ti wasired but im happy<3

0418 bad

Got home after bowling.n was getting ready to.sleep when dad found worms in jelly's waterbowl.mum n sis are freaked out.i went down.there was lots,lots of worms.probably at least 30. We have to bring jelly for checkup asap.not for her infection.but for the finding of worms.i fear for her life.she is so precious to me..im so worried she will get heartworm.i dont know how the worms came about.but its just gross.and jelly has some of the symptoms of worms.having a pot-bellied stomach..fatigue..hai...hate to tell the future...im bringing her to the vet asap.no matter how much it cost..jelly've been feeling uncomfortabe...shyt me.i havent been observant lately..i should have noticed something was wrong...i have to stay strong.prepare myself both mentally and physically for the worst.and i really hope the worst would never never ever happen.not in this life man..please..my nightmare is coming true.n i wish it hadnt.nothing will happen.nothing...

now i cant sleep:/...i scared i would get the nightmare again...but im tired...too weak to stand strong...

0418

I got a damn nightmare..it scared the hell of me.in the nightmare,i was left alone..all of my close ones..they all left...i was frightened.scared.n i woke up.its 4.18am..

SOON

Im pretty excited about my birthday coming up<3 i get hyper once the date is mention.Another reason was me looking forward to the first period of the day,which is Art.but hell no:( science ct is on that day._. Dang it:((( hoping people remember my birthday:) been dropping some hints here and there but yeah.. Comeon! Its pretty obvious right? But given your memory erm... I dun really expect you to rmb.BUT AT LEAST TRY KK?? today is my birthday in the chinese lunar calendar! Today is the 12 th of aug.but in the chinese calendar,i dunno which month it is:P eating egg for breakfast!so cool right?! Hope the day will start out right^^

09/08/12

Lots of things was going through my mind today.i've failed as a friend.i feel so helpless.unable to do anything.it took me soo long to see that she is suffering.not gonna who cus i want to keep it private.she is only 14 this year.n she've been going through so much..crying was her only solution and hurting her hand came as natural.she hasnt been sleeping..crying to sleep was the only solution on an sleepless night.But,she fooled everyone..including me..she look so happy you know..and it really amazing how she can put on a smile when she is suffering.i been through some tough situations,she had been through worse. Her mum is a total bitch.her bro is an asshole.only her dad was protecting her but he is too..powerless.money earned all went to his wife.got scolded by her mum for ages,for something she didnt even do.that is seriously very accusing.her mum obviously played favortism on her asshole brother.givi g him 200 bucks per week and 15 bucks for her per week.out of the 15 bucks she was given,she has to save 10 bucks.cus she wasnt given any money otherwise.if she wants to go out,she has to use her money.that is totally ridiculous.its no wonder why she prefer our male teachers in school rather than her own brother.she had been through so much.n as a friend.i took so long to realise and i cant even do anything to help.the only thing i can do for her is to keep an eye on her,not letting her hurt herself.i made her promise to tell me everything and she has to let me share her suffering too.we made a pact,we would cry together whenever she need me.so if i disappear,you knw what im doing.probably crying.this girl made me cry.haiz..

3/8/2011

Today was awesome<3 school was good and funny things happen today which really suggest how stupid and clever i am at the same time todayxDi had recess during the eriod which i was suppose to be having PE. And it was after mother tongue.thank god wen lin and patricia reminded.i've bought my food alr.so i had to gulp them all down in less than a minute.and i bought cheeseball rice,the cheeseballs were still scorching hot-.-so i ate it in such a hurry n went to have PE as usual:)told grace and people my story and they laugh.its not the end.there is still more._.apparently i mispronuced words since,not that i meant it,its just the slip of my tongue cuz i said anything that came across my mind:P

Bad bad day:(

Exhausted as usual..but today..mr faisal cried:( a very soft hearted man,could really tell it took him alot of courage..but its tough..so he broke down..he chose to tell us not during the VE lessons but during his Art lessons.i was really surprised upon hearing him making his confession and he said sorry.i was a little confused.he didnt do anything wrong.he has been a really caring teacher trying to help with problems now n then.but he is just too busy juggling with both his studies and work.he said sorry for not being there enough,i dont blame him though..i learnt of some really very hurtful gossips that mr fai said he had heard.its was horrifying.to a guy liddat who did nothing wrong.if anyone is to be blame,its our class..i feel really bad.he cried so bad.he didnt want to include ms siti as he doesnt want her to be affected.he reaches home ard midnight during the odd weekdays.and he has to wake up so early to go to work.hr isnt the type to scold and he himself detest scolding others..so the art lesson ended quite with heavyhearted.i seriously swore under my breath that im gonna kill those stupid gossipmongers.even ms martens had learnt about it.was slightly tearing.cant stand people who cry n he is a guy somemore._. Throughout the day,i was reflecting on the class,on myself..i didnt do anything to help.even karilynn is at lost.the class is like a wet market.nobody listens.its a rough time for karilynn and sakina too.i understand what they are going through.its isnt easy.and some people just made the matters worse.i tell you,i seriously wanted to give them a slap.all the gossipings,bullying,how long does it have to last?!im seriously thought of giving up but im not going to.cus its nearing the end..i have to try to make a change.even slight matters.mr faisal had been giving more than he should n the class is taking advantage of it.but the good thing is at least he smiles cuz he was amazed by the fm.lol.so slow._. At first he didnt want to wear the transmitter-.- n i had to go,Wear.n he wears.lol.really a kid sometimes.he's seriously too soft hearted sia.ms siti is stronger,in a way luh..hai..now want to talk to mr fai about the class scared he cry again._. Hai mr faisal,u've got the wrong class.sad to say but its true.this class doesnt suit you.but what doesnt kill you,make you stronger right?

Now.

Now im not so happy with the comment u'd made.its hurtful okay.n given my character,knowing it,u should be able to predict what.my reaction will be.and i tell you,u did an unwise thing by not predicting my reaction when u said it.Nobody ever get away.when they pissed me off.you are not an exception.my tolerance maybe higher towards you but know ur limit dude.step over it and u will get it from.Im not angry or anything.just disappointed that you can even say this.if you dont know my character,there are two reasons why.one is either you really forgot or you didnt even make an effort to understand me.like i said.im not angry or anything.I just find the comment very offensive.and its my natural instinct to react to me.i didnt hit u very hard.if u werent my close friend,u wouldnt even just get a slap on ur back and ignoring.get real k.watch that mouth of yours.u have limit so do i.step over the limit and dont blame me.who even started it first?do i even say that to you?

25/7

Dont know what's happening today.i felt soo tired this morning that i dragged myself out of the bed yoday.i didnt even brush my teeth proably.for once since a long time,i felt so weak..my eyes were about to close but i control,telling me to keep awake and not be late for school.so i made it to the bua to school.there once,i sat down,the first thing i did is to settle down and the next minute,i was sleeping.i had this dream but i couldnt remember the details.all i know is that the dream made me to find peace at least a while.time do really pass.reach school but just cant to bring myself to chat happily with my gals.didnt said much for the whole morning.was soo tired that i fell asleep..didnt said anything during lessons no expression too.grace was worried ask if im okau because im not usually like that.ive no confidence.i wonder where my confidence when.i became very uncertained.n tears just swelled up my eyes but i wasnt crying.just tearing..everyone was careful to me today.asking nicely.if im okay.jut nodded my head most of the time.feel pretty fragile today.like a glass.but i was not broken.maybe just mad at my dad.had an arguement with him two nights back.i was very tired.replied him in a tone that he doesnt like.i know he's tired.everyone is..so i didnt really talk to.him..just hi and ok.worried for some people.saying they're ok but they are not.everyone's a little hard time these days.dont blame them.everyone is exhausted and there's exams coming in two weeks.with my birthday clashes with.science.not really confident these days.though i get questions correct,i feel my answer is still wrong.emoing maybe? Probably need a nice hug and sleep.things should better tomorrow:) im okay,just a little tired.still can hang on..

Im so scared...

I thought everything will be going smoothly when my mum booked a flight to hongkong with me n my sis.i thought everything will be okay n i would enjoy my trip.my great grandma fell n she bled alot.i was going to sleep then i heard a loud bang.i thought it was just the books fell,nothing more.then my second sis came in screamed.my granny was on the floor.i rush over,followed my my mum.she.started to bleed at her head.i went to get a towel.mum held it to stop.the bleeding but it just continue to bled.i panicked,everyone panicked,my dad got to stop bathing n rush out.mum was soo scared that she trembled really hard,sis got to tell her to calm down n.get change.i went down to call my maid,open the door n.waited anxiously for the ambulance to arrive.i knew what to do cus i been in the ambulance.i went up again,help n was told to come.down to wait for the ambulance.everything was in chaos,everyone was panicking,everyone was everywhere.my sis n i was the calmest.we knew what to do,sis went to get dad to drive the car out n i was there waiting.the ambulance came,dad drove the car out.i told the paramedics what i know n they rushed up .mum was the translator.they wrapped granny's head n got her into the stretcher,got into.the ambulance n off they go.my grand aunts were informed,dad went to get my uncles n my sis,i n my maid was left behind.first sis rushed back n arrived soon after.all of us cant sleep,i dont dare to go back to the room.jelly is awake too.my maid cant sleep. Why does she always fell in my presence?i feel so guilty,unable to prevent it.fml.mum said Granny is still receiving treatment at A&E..just hope she will be alright..

Good:)

I was in the toilet again:) singing back to december by taylor swift.i sang twice but sweat buckets.it was fun though:D taylor's voice is really amazing,gentle yet strong.its no wonder why she get to perform in the grammys.as to me,my tune was better:)no rush n no need to squeeze all the air in my lungs out,did it effortlessly.good^^ its a goal i'd manage to achieve<3 i found the joy of singing again,in the toiletXD thats so lmao-.+

Guilty..

I feel so guilty.if i hadnt suggest cycling towards the end for 10 mins n then uturn back to return the bikes,jh wouldnt have met with an accident.he wouldnt had fell,substain a fractured wrist and stiches on his knee.he wouldnt have to suffer pain if i had listen and cycled back.i was shaking,very very shocked to see him lying on the ground,bleeding.i tried to control.i'd wanted to help,i knew how to.but i couldnt do anything because im terrified.i was scared i would even make things worse.i was trembling when i tried to make the call.my voice was shaky.everything happen so fast.i had many feelings going through me.yes,i appeared very calm but deep inside was a total chaos.in the ambulance,i was trembling.very afraid tat i drop the bag n the paramedic has to stop the car so to pick up the bag.things could have become worse if i delay the ambulance.if it wasnt because of my stupid decision,he would be eating at home happily telling his mom n dad how happy he was,instead of having his arm in cast for 1 1/2 months.even though i made sure he was okay and everything,it doesnt lessen my guilt.i owe him one.sorry jh..imfeelingsoguilty...

IM BACK:D

Im back!to the hyper me;)im alright now and since im alright now,reading my pass posts seems a little weird o.o anyway,holidays has started.not a bad thing anyway,wth me hooking onto instagram nd becoming obsessed with myself taking pictures in the toilet.LOL,toilet has been my favorite place in my house recently.i would do anything inside;singing,dancing,crying,shitting,taking pictures:)so if u cant find me
U know where exactly to look for me;) holiday has been a great deal:D waking up early with already-awake mind even though i slept for only several hours is totally awesome:))
#likeaswag
Gotta get a book soon,its getting boring wth just me the only gurl in the toilet.hai..someone PLS ARRANGE A SLEEPOVER?u will be doing me great service:)i wanna work but im underage.damn==school tmr n yet im up waiting to watch the encore of my favorite drama:)forensic heroes3<3 how i love forensic science.its shoo damn awesome^^k bye
P.s once i have a good nite sleep,all my troubles are gone*.*

These days..

Have been hving mix feelings and anger was the thing.every time as i try control my feelings,tears flow down my cheeks,damn and for a person whose anger always subsides after listening music,music hasnt really hv any effect on me.sleep hasnt been helping much too since i cant sleep everytime im angry right?so,im currently depend on variety shows,frankly,it has help me the most.another way is to bury myself in the world of books,that's y been asking ruixuan n van to lend me books n van still hsvent reply==im guess everyone is vy tired too which is totally normal.even i whose playful side subsides whenever im tired.but everyone is trying their best to lsst till the last day of school,they enourage themselves and were happy in school as they try their best,that's the whole happy thing cus everyone is happy.But, must be a party spoiler,to tell u the truth,im really angry.wth must you spoil someone's mood affecting the rest?and the worse thing is tat my mum is also include in this.it takes just 2 person to spoil my whole mood and the rest of my days.im sensitive can,can u be respectful when u talk.not just becus u are my senior.so what,i dun care.to me,everyone is the same n im a human beings too k.pls think of my feelings before u talk.yes,i can hold back my anger and fool everyone but given a chance,u wouldnt want to see me getting angry cus that will be last thing u want to see.seriously,my heart hsdnt been tough enough to withstand tat kind of anger if u agitate me,so,shut ur mouth.
P.s im seriously looking towards the holidays,cus that will be the time im able to chill.for now i need to bury myself in books n shut my world down.EMERGENCY SHUT DOWN xD so if u find me ignoring u,u knw what to do,dont disturb

Oh pls,im done wth tolerating you

Today was a not-so-good day,not because im tired.i could hv ended my school day happier instead of controlling my anger n shutting my world of my own where only music is the only tonic to the anger i felt,even music didnt help much.im in the foul mood.at least an half hr nap help a little.was enjoying the last lesson of the oral communication,and at the canteen,u spoiled my still-happy mood.and if it wasnt for meera who stop me,by now u should hv a slap on ur face.yes,i know u dun like me cus u think im a pretender.i didnt comment on tat but the way u said about the work.i mean like,wth?u dun even know about the work we are doing k.and u judge it cus pat's work is clearer than mine?its totally childish kay.u dun even know the formula and the time n effort we put in to make it look nice.i dun mind u comparing cus its ur opinion but pls,treat the work done by people careful can?!instead of just handling it carefully cus its fragile,u treated it roughly and the crystals broke u know?!its not that easy for everyone to have the crystals touching the base of the water and there u go,u broke it.whatever crap u are saying about the crystals isnt strong or the base,pls,u dun even know its fragile can?! Everyone knows it and our teacher warned us about it and i told u to handle it carefully n u simply ignore.u want a beating it is?i dun mind u comparing my work to pat's cus i've meant to compete with her and its not about jealousy can,im proud of my work and others too,it was very beautiful to me and there u are,breaking everything?!change ur attitude dude,it sucks

Damn,i feel so weak

Yesterday we had a late mother's day celebrations.my aunt bought lots of food,i dont know why but started to get rashes on my face.concluded i might hv a new allergy.ate two pills to stop itch also serves as sleeping pills so i can sleep better.took awhile for the medicine to take effect.slept vy late n just woke up feeling pretty weak.85% of my system seems out if order.lols..

Im type B?

I do agree my personality is like type B but my blood type is O.im adventurous and playful which is part of type B's nature but im O.my family has only two people with blood type O and thts me and my grandpa.my sis and parents are all blood A which seriously the reason why im so different from my sis.haha

Popularity

I seriously think my facebook is gettin livelier cus my fb is always being full of nofications.ppl have been spamming me and i made an effort to try updating my status and spent some efforts on editing the photos i made.the response was unexpectly good.was just expecting like 3 to 5 likes but ppl keep liking it that makes me feel good:)im changing too,im camwhoring plus i hug more now.but still playful:)my playfulness cannot be get rid off,cus that's me!

Boom shalalala~

Been playing in school these days,wenlin said im too playful liao.haha,i agree though,im never the type to be able to study quietly.and if i do study seriously,that's becos my life is at the stake.hhaha.just kidding.even though im tired,i still managed to laugh it off and play,wanted to sleep but cant cus its too noisy==here in class im trying to sleep and people was calling me,making noise,shouting.aiyo,i barely slept in fact i didnt!n during the dry rehersal for drama,i thought the class would be quiet when mr fai came in.aiyo.n he just practically sit there==and there in the canteen i was trying to sleep and as i lean on the table,finally able to catch some sleep,there,krab bangsthe table with her elbow==and waking me up just to change the setting of the calculator cus she doesnt know how to use==i ended up not able to sleep cus the banging on the table gave me mini heart attacks==back in class too,the sudden movement of the chair freaks me out.hai...

#IMSOAWESOME

I made the picture with much effort,till my battery's life has only 2%.my first time making such photos:)hope they will like it^^

Stalkers o.o

My sister stalks me wor.and she ratted on me in front of my parents last week.say i post ridiculous things,that's true:)but dont find it ridiculous cus i find my sis's posts more ridiculous.lol

Tomorrow

Going out to tampines with my awesomeee BFFs tmr!lots happened so need a break kinda looking forward to tmr,hope we have a blast!im gonna take alot of pics and put dem into a collage.just downloaded the app,btw,the facial done a little harm on my face wor now ah,the pores are like visible==

UHM UHM..OHMA:D

today is totally awesome^^was doing stuffs at pat's house when all the weird,acting,noncense things all surfaced.my voice became higher cus i was excited.LOL:)PIGGY,WHEN U SEE THIS,UR PRESENT IS COMPLETE^^SO,WE TOOK VIDEO OF US BEING SILLY N ALL:)SO,few days in advance,i made an appointment with ariel.yea.im suppose to pass something.apparently,while he's waiting for me at the mrt'.so here was me and sebby in the bus(just boarded the bus after waving bye to pat) and when we seated and she started being so paraniod about meeting ariel .LOL.so cute^^my ohma is seriously awesome to the max^^she even intro me this song^^ so we seriously have so much FUN TDY^^met ariel,he grew taller==n changes his hairstyle again wor.ANYWAY,im so looking forwad for tmr's party^^

UNCLE ROB IS COMING TO TOWN^^

HE'S dropping by^^YAY:DIT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I EVER MET MY AWESOME ANGMOH FRIEND:)THE ONLY ANGMOH FRIEND I HAVE I GUESS^^BUT HE'S NOT GONNA STAY HERE FOR LONG JUST FOR 6 HOURS:( ANYWAY,STILL HAPPY IM GETTING TO SEE HIM^^wonder if he has skrank==cus he's REALLY SUPEERRRRR TALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.MY GOSH:)ANYWAY,GOOD NIGHT^^GONNA HV A BUSY DAY TMR WITH KRAB:)LOOK FORWARFD PIGGY^^

my gawd^^

THE BOY N THE GIRL IN THE MV OF CONCRETE ANGEL HAS GROWN SO AWESOMELY^^THE BOY'S CALLED LUKE BENWARD.THE GIRL IS CALLED NOEL WIGGINS.THEY BOTH GROWN UP WOR^^NOEL HAS BECAME EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL PLUS LUKE IS SO HAWT NOW^^

omg^^awesome singers:D

THEY ARE SO TALENTED^^i want their voice:)when people praise my voice,i take it just as a comment and say thank you cuz i know,there're many talented singers out there.i wasnt even qualified for choir.my vocal cord is small and my lungs isnt that big to take in much oxygen to sing longer.ANYWAY..HERE'S THE AWESOME SINGERS^^BACK IN THE YEAR I WAS BORN (I GUESS)
rick price:)

brian mcknight:)

MARTINA MCBRIDE(this song is the true story.her niece died of abuse.she made the song for her)I love this:)HER VOICE IS JUST AMAZING:)

BTW AH,SHE LOOKS A LITTLE LIKE MS QUEK^^lol
3 SONGS FOR TDY^^

here's to the 70th post^^

THIS AWESOME LULLABY THAT MY MUMMY USED TO PLAY IN THE CAR WHEN IM YOUNGER^^I STILL REMEMBER HOW THE SONG WENT LIKE^ÂWESOME:D

when i say goodbye,doesnt mean forever:)

STOP CHILD ABUSE:(

i came about this song via ashley's lit project.THE SONG WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL N THEY DID REALLY WELL IN THEIR MV.the word is awesome^^i seriously got to thanks this guys.if they havent used this song to make their mv,i wouldnt come across this beautiful song:)i cant sing like her.im not as talented as she is but i believe.im special in my way.SO GUYS.STOP CHILD ABUSE!IT'S SERIOUSLY SAD TO SEE CHILDREN SO YOUNG DIE WHEN MANY THINGS LY AHEAD IN THEIR LIFES:(

THE HAPPINESS WITH JEN TODAY^^

TODAY WAS TOTALLY AWESOME^^though tiredness caught up with me when noon strikes and handling my classmate's fainting in class.after school was awesome^^glad everythin is coming into an end now.i felt signifcant while going to joey's aid today.and im happy:)that's all i needed.to feel signifcant.so,WAS TOOKING UNGLAM PICS WITH PIGGY WHILE EATING,HELPING OUT WITH THE FMS N ALL,MEETING MS MARTENS N HAD A SHORT CHAT(SHE'S TOTALLY NICE^^),HELPING HUIFUN WITH HER CUT ON HER HANDS,PLAYED BADMINTON.N GO NUTS WITH JEN ON THE BUS,AT THE HUB N AT HER HOUSE^^never had i laugh so much for these past weeks.thanks jen:)really made my day.ur dad is very nice^^laujgh alot with the jokes,music n gossips(complains) we've talked about.thks guys:)saranghae

DAY AFTER RAINS^^

DUN CARE ALR^^SHALL JUST ENJOY THE SONGS^^here goes,song of the day.DRUMROLLL......DUM DUM DUM DUM DUMMMMMMMM booooooM!YAYLOL.K.SONGS SHALL APPEAR NOW:D
P.S PPL,DUN SPOIL MY MOOD CAN IF NOT/.....

U'RE SO GONNA GET IT FRM ME^^

can u just shut ur freaking mouth of complain??

stupid human nature==take things for granted.ppl tell u things nicely just shut up n do it can.as if we freaking care la.U WANT UR EARS TO SPOIL IT'S UP TO U CUS U'RE ALR A GROWN-UP.my god..speaking about being a grown-up,can u just stop acting childish?it seriously piss me off.seriously i think,we,trying to talk u out of that brain of urs n u're avoiding us while not doing anything,it's a waste of our efforts n time.seriously,it's totally not worth it trying to make u wake up.DUN ACT AS IF U'RE FORCED OR STH CUS NO ONE WONT EVEN CARE IN FUTURE,WHAT DO U THINK THE FIRST IMPRESSION PPL HAVE OF U?SO OLD ALR STILL ACT SO CHILDISH==the trs in sac are all nice can.u GO ST NICKS N TRY ACTING LIKE THIS IN FRONT OF THE TR,CONFIRM U'LL SENT TO SEE THE PRINCIPAL OR DISCIPLINE MASTER.GO TRY LA.I DARE U TO DO SO.SERIOUSLY SIA.STOP THAT NOSENSES.IT SERIOUSLY PUT ME OFF==

SPARKSZ^^

TODAY'S camp is totally awesome^^sucks all my energy away==from young to old.so anyways,while writing this,my right arm hurts for muscle what?overstretch ah?YEA. AND SO,i enjoyed the games today^^the first half of the day goes from me oversleeping to rushing to meet up the guys,late by 10 mins but waiting for other ppl with the other tutors n tuteesn off we go when we conclude the late late ppl wont be coming n go we go to NTU^^woa,wait for the bus like jhsiyfddbhuwdghui but the good thing is i saw this handsome angmoh eh^^so tall:S yaya.n when we reach NTU n i got intro into my group thor,i personaly think the grp is so dead with this troublemaking boy==n im the maknae SOMEONE.SO NVM,WE DID THE ICEBREAKER GAME N IT WAS AS BORING AS A LAMA.EH NO.SLOF.YAYAYA.K.but the games we did afterwards.WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!WE WON 3 GAMES STRAIGHT IN THE MORNING EH U KNOW^^N ITS WAS SO FUN^^THOUGH SWEATED ALOT O.O there came lunch n blah blah blah.my team member treated me drink^^awesome orh?maknae mah^^after lunch we played treasure hunt n we were FAR AHEAD FRM THE OTHER GRPS^^then time passes n the end is here,we dressed up our own THOR^^weiming.so nicely eh.n i was vy disappointed to get 3rd place.im like WTF?WE SPENT SO MUCH EFFORT N WE GOT 3RD PLACE???WE DESIGNED THOR VY NICELY LEH.UPPEERRRRR:((

okay....syafiie==

aPPARently,this guys posted on my grp of friends(as in,a group luh) saying he fell in love with someone in the grp.SO,everyone started guessing,not all luh,most.so apparently it turns out to be me,which i''d joking called my name in one of those comment n besides,the hint that guy gave is so damn obvious luh== so he fb me n guess what he said?he confessed==was pretty surprise cus didnt expect this.plus,it all feel so weird.n let me tell u some parts of the convo."i have a heart that i really like u.." n i dun really get this part so i asked him what he like about me n he goes "ur cuteness ,kind and ur personality" n i goes ... n he started saying the 3 words==n it's not nice to ask him to stop right?so i ignored him.i thought,he like my personality?but he doesnt know me at all.only the surface.n he dont even hv the reason to find out what's deep inside.plus,he's not so mature yet so..n i dun hv any feelings for him.just that of friends..so,i concluded he isnt the one for me luh.plus,he isnt serious in his past relationship n he has a change of hearts,fickle-minded i say.how could a guy find another girl after he broke up with a girl?n he's just the look,suface-based personality guy who look for those in girls.he isnt 18 yet.so no no.though im glad i hv someone who likes me but he isnt my type

gosh==

again,krabby pattie is awesome to the max:)never fail to make me laugh^^ n SO,i fell n got hurt while chasing after that damn bus==adults say i look at boys but from what i see,they are all old uncles==chase after the uncles??sth must be wrong wth me ==in short,i CHASED THE BUS BUS BUS:)so where was i?ah,the part whereby i fell down,i fell on the road n got looked at==cant really rmb everything cus it happen too fast.for a few seconds,i was u know,shock?but then got myself up n continue running towards the bus.must be mad arent i?chase until liddat o.o n SO,IT HURTS=( n when my second sis got home at night she'd got an injection cus apparently,she stepped on a rusty nail==n it went in pretty deep in.i guess she bled lots cus the hole wasnt small:0 n it's pretty deep,the wound healed alr wor.so my wound healing also wor.so bye bye eh?

song of the week:)

SE73N AGAIN.WOR WOR:)THAT'S SHOW HOW AWESOME HE IS^^ this is awesome:)cus i cant even do it==for now cuz my throat id damn suai right now o.o SO PPL:) i shall update the blog every week n each post with the song of the week^^GURANTEE NICE ONE:)to krabby pattie,download the previous song n this too^^I WANT:)besides can take a few dance moves from him too.awesome much^^here goes the song of the week!DRUM DRUM BOOM:D k la.here goes:)

SE7EN:)

HIS VOICE IS AWESONE N ADDICTIVE MAN;)luvin him:)he looks different after his comeback o.o but i still luv him:0 cuz his songs is both AWESOME N AWESOME;)btw ah,back to the subject,i didnt know mr potato would get so famous eh.it's thatf obvious or it's that my acting skills just sucks?anywayj,we are just merely friends kay.so life now seems goes...a little slower.everything slow down now.even if i laugh,it seems longer n i luv dat cus that means my laughter last longer:)so u guys might think im a little nuts nowadays,well i agree on dat though cus i dunno what my path lies n i dun even know what i wanted to be le.the future lays ahead seems dim yet i find happiness in it.so well,a dancer or a doctor?help me choose can?so yeah,hope everything be just like this:)as long as possible:)i would be totally satified if this happiness that i experience days before today to last.n the fact is u dun even know im that quiet in class==i just did 3 things mainly,smile,knod n walk== so here goes the song of the day:)hope u enjoy it cus i love it^^i was once like dat u know,not being able to sing is horrible:(so here goes:)

First sis:)

She's awesome nowadays^^been teasing her about the many boyfriends she have.woa i tell u.one called gary,then wat bradon,victory n just awhile ago randy.i salute her luh.then that one night few days ago,this guy gay came to my house.he was outside apparently n msg my sis that he wasnout there waiting.so yeah,mum,aunts n i became kpo n wwent to sneak up to two of dem.according to mum,they seem wuite close.haha.i couldnt see cus it dark.only able to make out that gary's hairstyle.o.o n my dad just sat at the dining table eating oranges.cool huh;)wn when she came back,she hv sth frm him.woa. Wat chicken essence ah.haha,lol.imma getting ready to go out.my uncle wanna hv a blas with m dad tonight cuz his bdae is just next week:)gotta go:) before ypthat,things hv ratherr been peaceful nowadays.n i like it just the way it is now.hope it continue o be liddat.love my family^^nowadays,trying to come up with moves to the song SOLO with bamb n jean.came up quite a few nice ones:)hope the rest like it.everyday to be like this,im happy enough:)

my stalkers:)

hey guys,apparently we had much FUN tdy didnt we?alla bout mr faisal n ms siti n both of dem liking lady gaga.they are GUILTY;D so FUN TDY,me n sab was like laughing non-stop during mr faisal's lesson:)i found out his address.im was pretty shock he like lady gaga.hahahahah.my gosh.n tdy me,pattie,jean created quite a number of nice steps for the dance tdy.enjoy our discussion,gossips:0was eating all her food.HAHAHA

happy:)

i'm feeling pretty hype today^^common test started tdy n im pretty sure i fail for history.well,but the laughters i had washed all the troubles i had today^^ i had fun at the room with my gals after sch n we laugh pretty hard,till i think i gotten abs;) n tonight,wen lin msged me saying im talented or sth n i was pretty u know .o.o yea.gtg,that annoying uncle rushing me to eat.havent eaten yet^^hoho oh yea.n this girl(damn cute) called me jiejie at the park tdy while i was with jelly n jean.she came running at me.OMG:0 i dun even knw her n the fact she called me jiejie felt good:)her bro n cousin are vy cute^^awesome much.now i gotta really go:( get back tmr:)shall writes the letters;)

to my stalker #3

hey stalker,regarding my ability ah,i dont denied it.hoho^^ prehaps cuz i grew up around guys so i knew the way how boys works.that why i'm closer to my male relative rather than the females:)yep,n the thing with teachers eh,i dunno how it happen,it just happen o.o i say my eyes are the one who attract dem?cus many say my eyes damn nice:0 n i agreed^^cus as i imagine,my eyes gives off this mysterious,curious,cool(distant) feeling but it changes when i meet different people:)u know u wouldnt want me getting angry right?cuz my eyes would really get black just black nothing else.n i think it scares some ppl off.that time i stared at daphanie n she backed off.cool huh cuz it sort of make me feel like im the emperor or sth.haha but if i found something interesting,my eyes lit up,my eyes would widen n all.yeah;)cool huh.im glad u're glad to hv me as ur friend.cus im awesome^^

mr potato

i met him after school today,n while walking,we had a short chat.i called him mr potato n he asked me y i gave him this name why not others.n i said cuz he look like one.u knw,he has this ability to tease ppl till bochup.he said'if i'm mr potato,then u ....ms potato ah?' my god,embarrassing sia.lucky we parted ways seconds later if not i dunno how else i will continue the chat.n during the weekends,i fb him saying i detected him in the yearbook with his hair flying around n he replied 2 hours later saying 'ya.n the school put me as MS NG KAI JUN somemore.LOL.i checked the yearbook n theré's really an error.joke of the year eh.a boy become a girl?homosexual ah?haha

is my eyes weird>>>>???

i've been seeing people thatf resemble korean idols.im i mad or wat??last friday on my way home,i saw this guy who look like taecyeon n the next day,on my way to my tution,i saw this adorable guy resembling nickhun and after tution,on my way out of RI,i saw this handsome looking guy who totally look like TAO.OMG:DDDDD BAMBI CAN VOUCH FOR THAJT,HE'S DAMN HANDSOME.OMG.HOTNESS OVERLOAD....Beeep...n today,on my way back home,in the bus,i saw this guy who look like SIKYUNG while i got off the BUS.OMG?OMG???my eyes must have been changed or sth or my life had been tilted upside down.omg.4 guys within 4 days????friday,sat,sun n today(mon) my gosh.who will i see next?seulong?omg:)quite impossible,seulong is very pale.n GOOD-LOOKING^^ kays,shall stop here.if not will talk talk till the end of the world.OMG^^

to my stalker #2

i hv lots of things to tell but i dunno where to start..generally,things aint going my way as i had imagine.i thought things will go well n it did,at first not now though.things are going haywire n my school life is fucked up==(american way of saying messed up,got it from the book;) now,though things are falling back into its places,some pieces are still missing.things are pretty rushed u know,doing this n that with projects yet done.handling with the compeition pressure(its compeition period now,though im not playing;rotting there,i still feel the pressure) speaking of these,i made a few friends:) with anglican high n chung cheng n made enemies with dunman high.damn pissed off wth dem.it's a long story,in short,they CHEATED at the 2nd double match.DAMN WAT SIA.but after much conselling frm our tr n all(venting anger on pillows n all) much better now.IN FADCT,CUS OF DEM,THE WHOLE TEAM WAS LIKE CRYING THEIR EYES OUT:( both B n C team did.everyone cried.A SAD DAY:( i d\feel so cheated n sammi got injured.IN SHORT,HAI....but it motivates us to train harder n harder.this wat i had learnt in badminton n i understand the meaning of being part of the badminton team.failling keeps u wanting to play n train harder in the badminton spirt=it n it works in the mysterious way.that's all for tdy.will update tmr^^

lots n lots 0.o

LOTS of things happen like within a week n im getting busier n even more stress out thatf i dount hv the time to update the bloggie here so pls be understanding ah.n i will just write watever happen within a day so dun follow the date i wrote it n yeah,my posts can be inconsitant..be understanding%

her

i was thinking of writing her a valentine day letter or sth but now,i dun think i should

to my stalker:)

my day hasnt been good.what i can say now is that my personal life is of thatf messed up n i dun even know how to handle it.drained both mentally n physically why cant she understand thatf real me?it seriously hard to be strong on the outside while ur true self is an fragile image.i loath the real me but it also comforted me thatf im arent heartless or anything.i cried at home today for i feel my life,now is damn fucked up by thatf one person well,partly school life.its compeition period ad im alr fucking enough tired with school n all n there she was,talking behind my back as if im invisble.though i cant hear,my gut feeling isnt to be taken lightyly off.i dare tell her im a practical person.if i had done sth wrong to agitate someone,though i dont say sorry in person n rightaway,i did in letters right.im alr trying my best to make up what i did during camp corri.im totally stress out.damn no one would want to see me being angry.im serious.ask my stalker how scary i was

HIM:) double confirm.another him

he ACCEPTED my FRIEND REQUEST!I WAS LIKE DAMN HAPPY.NO WORD CAN DESCRIBE IT:) didnt koe till sheyenne told me.he havent been on fb for some time.but im still glad we can stalk him:)sheyenne is really my pal:)plus i think we are really lucky cus he only accepted a few sec2s which INCLUDES ME N SHEYENNE^^SO HAPPY:) hope he update his fb soon.hope i dun hv to wait so long;P

him?

we past by without meeting each other's eyes.my classmate said his eyes got smaller o.o haha.but im not that despo luh==not with mr low.heard his doing well:) n was goin to be due for army soon..

DIASTER:(

yesterday was a total war zone.sis was back before her curfew n well i dun really know the exact details but it seems that dad asked her a few ques n my sis sort of agitate him with her words n there goes,a war started== after all of that dad's lecture,everyone's hearts was shutted,refusing to listen to anything,mum went to bathe while the lecture but i could tell,she was sad,tired,disappointed n was the verge to cry but she held it back n on the pretext of bathing,im sure she cried in her showers,silently..i then had a talk with dad n mum,a LONG talk about my views n opinions n im glad they listen without interupting.i spoke the truth.wat my perspective was n they acepted it that this family isnt that strong,loving,close as we seems.mum looked better after her bath n shower does really helps one to feel better.it was 45 minutes past midnight when we finally finish our long chat.i was awake but im not really in the inside.wanted to kiss my sis's forehead but i couldnt cus i couldnt locate her head in the darkness:)LOL but i guess she felt better after a night sleep,same apply to my second sis.dad said some hurting words back there but he was trying lots to control his montrous temper till he was shaking.but i relly glad he tried controlling his temper.being a christain really helps in his behavior:)now sis's curfew is at 11pm.9 more minutes,hope they come home soon,luckily dad went out for some stuffs.shall stop here:)

my eyes:)

i have my junior saying my eyes doesnt look local:) one of them said i look a little of korean n im happy cus i know im aint the same as other girls.im different and i know it,appreciate wat my talents are,the ability to find wat's in a person's eyes.thinking whether he lied or is there a spark of excitement in there:) im glad im me even though my life so far havent been that smooth,well,i still like being me:)

butterfly

he's my form teacher for this year:) a nice guy i must say.he's trying hard to make sure i understand what;s goin on in class since things seems to go at full atern.im grateful for that though.seems like he havent teach a HI before cus he was quite surprise when he found out i cant hear as well as my other classmate do.but i think he being too nice although he's a nice guy.there were a few inccidents though..it was during his lesson.was queing up to enter the art room i met his eyes n it was u know,it sort of gives me the feeling that he sort of likes me?idk but i just felt liddat o.o he's a nice guy though looking out for his class,everyone of us.but i feel kinda sad for him cus he was like often bullied by us.lol.but he didnt mind n im grateful for that.btw,his eyes are pretty brown..but dun think rot.i just think he's a nice guy

wedding dress

listening to this song by taeyang:)awesome much.he played the piano n i played the keyboard.LOL.it's been a long time since i updated my blog n i guess i gonna hv to spam here.im sec 2 now.fast isnt it?nowadays,days seems to pass like airplanes.one blink and a day passes by..in fact im excited n sad?mix feeling.im excited thatthe fact of that im growing up sort of facinates me in a way(cant seem to wait to hv a bf)i think i would make a good gf?those mysterious n curious type.men likes it dun they?men likes to be pampered when they arent feeling well n i think i will do a good job on this?cus i hv this air of responsibility to protect the ones around me.well,yep.wonder whatf kind of man would i get.will leave it to fate.i believe,if u are meant to meet,u'll meet.PLUS i dun believe they will be able to resist my charmsXD well,the thing im sort of sad is that im growing older now.n my childhood wasnt that great.i dun hv lots of nice memories except for the fact that my so called 'best friends'when i was in st nicks only lasted for 2 years==well,getting caned is like my schedule?lol.but i guess,i really learnt my lessons.glad i was made to kneel down outside that night when i was younger.compeition is back again n the thing is that i've sprain my ankle so the natural thing that i will do is to depend on my right leg right?but i guess i over exert it that i got cramps at night==i tot it was a dream,never to expect when i woke up,my right leg was painful.couldnt even walk probably.thks to my aunt's message,i feel better.well.i hv 3 more mins to go before this damn com shut down on me.will update soon asap:)