Not good:(

Friends means an important part of my life.now that i encountered a crisis, i dont feel good. The strong image i've been trying to built up is practically tumbling down. I dunno how much i can hold on longer. I just gonna snap very soon whoever irritates me. Probably the person who can cheer me up is probably potato. Hope he can just use some lame jokes of his to put a smile on my face. Im having consultation with him tomorrow for science. Im probably gonna break down sooner or later . So im gonna try to avoid people. I just wanna to be left alone. Probably a breaking down session with sheyenne after consultation at the basketball court.im gonna buy a basketball as my own.i dont like running so im gonna play basketball.kenneth posted on fb saying girls who plays basketball are sexy.he's one weird guy.hahah.. So if you see me, dont ask me if im okay cus im definitely not..

So im a person who uses other people's money instead of mine.

I dont blame you for taking me as a bloodsucker? Sucking people's money. I dont deny the fact i uses people's money.now i spend my own money okay.i treat people things and when i did,you arent around.so wat can i say if u take me as a crap? But seriously your attitude just sucks. It really irks me.i know exams coming and all,you're tired.but this is arent the way u should treat me.im not ur slave.im not born to satisfy your requirements.im not like you whom can be so organised in your life.i dont manage my money that well.its all my fault ok. And though i forgive her for her lies and all doesnt mean i still trust her completely.and i dont really like the idea of you becoming good friends with her. But what can i say? Its your damn life.i have absolutely no right to tell you what to do. Im a dumb person but i still care for goodness sake. By now you should have known my character. But your attitude just tell me after j these years,u still dont know me enough. NOt enough. I dont mind people gossiping behind my back. But i do mind if you gossip behind my back. You're my friend. And although im dumb,im not that dumb to not know you are gossiping behind my back.im sensitive enough to know who makes the effort to know me. And i dont think you made it in my list of people.i dont feel so close to you anymore... And i do reflect on myself everyday both good and bad.i dont think you know this,do you? Im a little pissed n disappointed.

My IDEAL guy;)

So im bored at 12.25am and to add on, i cant sleep:/ so im doing this:)so..my ideal guy has to be of course,taller than me,handsome/cute but what matters to me most is his personality and he must be funny;) i like funny guys cus you fall in love in them unknowingly as research shown<3he must also be really sweet,i like guys who treat you comfortably<3but i get a little shy around guys and its a little awkward so a funny joke will do the trick;) i tell the rest about my ideal guy but my ideal guy has change a little.im more into being funny:) i would like my guy to be mature but has this 'child' side to him sometimes.i will definitely love that<3 he must really be sincere and caring +romantic And he must be strong cuz i like to cuddle:) this are the basic things i look out in guys:D i like cuddling into someone's arm and love backhugs<3 AND HE MUST LOVE ANIMALS<3
And he MUST NOT mind my problems( the fact that i have asthma,ezcema and hearing loss) and my HI FRIENDS( must not look down on HI) AND HE MUST HAVE THIS PROTECTIVE SIDE<3 ( not to the extend of being annoying><) AND LOVES MUSIC<3

Bonus: if he have a good voice<3 , has abs; muscular<3 he is into science<3 ,good-looking<3( im not really into looks nowadays but if he is handsome,ITS A BONUS!:D )

I have lots requirements of my guy prehaps im sensitive unlike the smokescreen i used everyday.im not perfect,no one is so dont look down. I hate people who is so proud and look down upon the HI:/ we arent deaf,we can hear,we can speak,we can do things you hearing people can do. If you cant get along with my HI buddies,forget about being my guy cuz i will not,absolutely wont be with any guy if he cant accept my buddies.( even though,i like him very much ) im capable of that.im strong. So yeah that's it for my ideal guy<3 its going to be 1am in 8 mins,so im going to sleep<3

And i love guys who explore deep

and reach out to the needys<3

P.s song for the wee hours<3

REACH OUT BY WESTLIFE

&

DEFYING GRAVITY version by Glee

(must know my favorite songs too<3)

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3