Im so scared...

I thought everything will be going smoothly when my mum booked a flight to hongkong with me n my sis.i thought everything will be okay n i would enjoy my trip.my great grandma fell n she bled alot.i was going to sleep then i heard a loud bang.i thought it was just the books fell,nothing more.then my second sis came in screamed.my granny was on the floor.i rush over,followed my my mum.she.started to bleed at her head.i went to get a towel.mum held it to stop.the bleeding but it just continue to bled.i panicked,everyone panicked,my dad got to stop bathing n rush out.mum was soo scared that she trembled really hard,sis got to tell her to calm down n.get change.i went down to call my maid,open the door n.waited anxiously for the ambulance to arrive.i knew what to do cus i been in the ambulance.i went up again,help n was told to come.down to wait for the ambulance.everything was in chaos,everyone was panicking,everyone was everywhere.my sis n i was the calmest.we knew what to do,sis went to get dad to drive the car out n i was there waiting.the ambulance came,dad drove the car out.i told the paramedics what i know n they rushed up .mum was the translator.they wrapped granny's head n got her into the stretcher,got into.the ambulance n off they go.my grand aunts were informed,dad went to get my uncles n my sis,i n my maid was left behind.first sis rushed back n arrived soon after.all of us cant sleep,i dont dare to go back to the room.jelly is awake too.my maid cant sleep. Why does she always fell in my presence?i feel so guilty,unable to prevent it.fml.mum said Granny is still receiving treatment at A&E..just hope she will be alright..

Good:)

I was in the toilet again:) singing back to december by taylor swift.i sang twice but sweat buckets.it was fun though:D taylor's voice is really amazing,gentle yet strong.its no wonder why she get to perform in the grammys.as to me,my tune was better:)no rush n no need to squeeze all the air in my lungs out,did it effortlessly.good^^ its a goal i'd manage to achieve<3 i found the joy of singing again,in the toiletXD thats so lmao-.+

Guilty..

I feel so guilty.if i hadnt suggest cycling towards the end for 10 mins n then uturn back to return the bikes,jh wouldnt have met with an accident.he wouldnt had fell,substain a fractured wrist and stiches on his knee.he wouldnt have to suffer pain if i had listen and cycled back.i was shaking,very very shocked to see him lying on the ground,bleeding.i tried to control.i'd wanted to help,i knew how to.but i couldnt do anything because im terrified.i was scared i would even make things worse.i was trembling when i tried to make the call.my voice was shaky.everything happen so fast.i had many feelings going through me.yes,i appeared very calm but deep inside was a total chaos.in the ambulance,i was trembling.very afraid tat i drop the bag n the paramedic has to stop the car so to pick up the bag.things could have become worse if i delay the ambulance.if it wasnt because of my stupid decision,he would be eating at home happily telling his mom n dad how happy he was,instead of having his arm in cast for 1 1/2 months.even though i made sure he was okay and everything,it doesnt lessen my guilt.i owe him one.sorry jh..imfeelingsoguilty...