310812:)))

Im a happy girl today<3 achieve my goal in bringing the friendship a step ahead ^{shhh... Only sheyenne knows about today cus we were together right after celebrations end<3my ultimate goal which i share with sheyenne has still a long way to go. I wont say who made me happy but i will name them names:) okay.Dinosaur is cute today he smiled alot which was very nice:D played a little with him after celebration,trying to snatch the toy he recieved.aha.i told him i wanted one.he said wait till 10 years later...lol which he will obviously be quite old;) so he said in 6 years time.lol,shall.remember it and claim my price when i turn 20<3 he got a monkey.i was like lol,he admitted he look like monkey,i didnt say it;) haha.potato salad was absolutely cute todayxD his baby picture got released today in the quiz:) his eyes look the same0.0 hahah,that's how i recognises him:) was a little pissed off when the sec 2 were made to sit all the way back but i smiled again cus potato was doing gangnam style!LOL,that's cute and then the dance whereby MnY danced on the stage like a madman:) he's cute too.hhah,mny's stamina is really ....em...not goodxD hahaha an this potato have no idea on what to do and just did the hand movements which obviously i laughed cus his facial expression was --- liddat.hahah:) potato is a really funny guy:))) talk alot to him today}mixture of chinese n english.haha:/ i kept saying tortoise in chinese when its a frogxD TORTOISE! Hehe:)) dog-ti wasired but im happy<3

0418 bad

Got home after bowling.n was getting ready to.sleep when dad found worms in jelly's waterbowl.mum n sis are freaked out.i went down.there was lots,lots of worms.probably at least 30. We have to bring jelly for checkup asap.not for her infection.but for the finding of worms.i fear for her life.she is so precious to me..im so worried she will get heartworm.i dont know how the worms came about.but its just gross.and jelly has some of the symptoms of worms.having a pot-bellied stomach..fatigue..hai...hate to tell the future...im bringing her to the vet asap.no matter how much it cost..jelly've been feeling uncomfortabe...shyt me.i havent been observant lately..i should have noticed something was wrong...i have to stay strong.prepare myself both mentally and physically for the worst.and i really hope the worst would never never ever happen.not in this life man..please..my nightmare is coming true.n i wish it hadnt.nothing will happen.nothing...

now i cant sleep:/...i scared i would get the nightmare again...but im tired...too weak to stand strong...

0418

I got a damn nightmare..it scared the hell of me.in the nightmare,i was left alone..all of my close ones..they all left...i was frightened.scared.n i woke up.its 4.18am..

SOON

Im pretty excited about my birthday coming up<3 i get hyper once the date is mention.Another reason was me looking forward to the first period of the day,which is Art.but hell no:( science ct is on that day._. Dang it:((( hoping people remember my birthday:) been dropping some hints here and there but yeah.. Comeon! Its pretty obvious right? But given your memory erm... I dun really expect you to rmb.BUT AT LEAST TRY KK?? today is my birthday in the chinese lunar calendar! Today is the 12 th of aug.but in the chinese calendar,i dunno which month it is:P eating egg for breakfast!so cool right?! Hope the day will start out right^^

09/08/12

Lots of things was going through my mind today.i've failed as a friend.i feel so helpless.unable to do anything.it took me soo long to see that she is suffering.not gonna who cus i want to keep it private.she is only 14 this year.n she've been going through so much..crying was her only solution and hurting her hand came as natural.she hasnt been sleeping..crying to sleep was the only solution on an sleepless night.But,she fooled everyone..including me..she look so happy you know..and it really amazing how she can put on a smile when she is suffering.i been through some tough situations,she had been through worse. Her mum is a total bitch.her bro is an asshole.only her dad was protecting her but he is too..powerless.money earned all went to his wife.got scolded by her mum for ages,for something she didnt even do.that is seriously very accusing.her mum obviously played favortism on her asshole brother.givi g him 200 bucks per week and 15 bucks for her per week.out of the 15 bucks she was given,she has to save 10 bucks.cus she wasnt given any money otherwise.if she wants to go out,she has to use her money.that is totally ridiculous.its no wonder why she prefer our male teachers in school rather than her own brother.she had been through so much.n as a friend.i took so long to realise and i cant even do anything to help.the only thing i can do for her is to keep an eye on her,not letting her hurt herself.i made her promise to tell me everything and she has to let me share her suffering too.we made a pact,we would cry together whenever she need me.so if i disappear,you knw what im doing.probably crying.this girl made me cry.haiz..

3/8/2011

Today was awesome<3 school was good and funny things happen today which really suggest how stupid and clever i am at the same time todayxDi had recess during the eriod which i was suppose to be having PE. And it was after mother tongue.thank god wen lin and patricia reminded.i've bought my food alr.so i had to gulp them all down in less than a minute.and i bought cheeseball rice,the cheeseballs were still scorching hot-.-so i ate it in such a hurry n went to have PE as usual:)told grace and people my story and they laugh.its not the end.there is still more._.apparently i mispronuced words since,not that i meant it,its just the slip of my tongue cuz i said anything that came across my mind:P

Bad bad day:(

Exhausted as usual..but today..mr faisal cried:( a very soft hearted man,could really tell it took him alot of courage..but its tough..so he broke down..he chose to tell us not during the VE lessons but during his Art lessons.i was really surprised upon hearing him making his confession and he said sorry.i was a little confused.he didnt do anything wrong.he has been a really caring teacher trying to help with problems now n then.but he is just too busy juggling with both his studies and work.he said sorry for not being there enough,i dont blame him though..i learnt of some really very hurtful gossips that mr fai said he had heard.its was horrifying.to a guy liddat who did nothing wrong.if anyone is to be blame,its our class..i feel really bad.he cried so bad.he didnt want to include ms siti as he doesnt want her to be affected.he reaches home ard midnight during the odd weekdays.and he has to wake up so early to go to work.hr isnt the type to scold and he himself detest scolding others..so the art lesson ended quite with heavyhearted.i seriously swore under my breath that im gonna kill those stupid gossipmongers.even ms martens had learnt about it.was slightly tearing.cant stand people who cry n he is a guy somemore._. Throughout the day,i was reflecting on the class,on myself..i didnt do anything to help.even karilynn is at lost.the class is like a wet market.nobody listens.its a rough time for karilynn and sakina too.i understand what they are going through.its isnt easy.and some people just made the matters worse.i tell you,i seriously wanted to give them a slap.all the gossipings,bullying,how long does it have to last?!im seriously thought of giving up but im not going to.cus its nearing the end..i have to try to make a change.even slight matters.mr faisal had been giving more than he should n the class is taking advantage of it.but the good thing is at least he smiles cuz he was amazed by the fm.lol.so slow._. At first he didnt want to wear the transmitter-.- n i had to go,Wear.n he wears.lol.really a kid sometimes.he's seriously too soft hearted sia.ms siti is stronger,in a way luh..hai..now want to talk to mr fai about the class scared he cry again._. Hai mr faisal,u've got the wrong class.sad to say but its true.this class doesnt suit you.but what doesnt kill you,make you stronger right?