confession %(haha.figure out wat's up wth the %)

a cut on my feet but pratically didnt realise how it got there==that somehow proves my mind wasnt really on eArth these days.well,i figure out that im feeling sort of dissappointed.i feel so dead besides reading books.no once of energy is in my body.i feel so lazy,so weird like something is amiss.i forced a smile but my doggie knows me best..im not myself.i forcing a smile just to hide my true self.it was supposingly to be happy as exams are over but i felt bored.as if the my world turns black and white.everything is so dull...im lacking of something which completes me.the real me..so what's that something may i ask?i got the urge to go to the quiet room where i felt peace and quiet.i felt im communicating with god in my mind.i feels so exhuasted...it's so boring to stay at home but i didnt hv the energy to go out with friends...